Wednesday, February 4, 2009

What can she possibly be thinking?

I often wonder what (S) is thinking. She calls our house her house. She calls the bedroom she sleeps in her room. She calls her mom and dad and brothers her friends. She hasn't seen her parents in a month and she hasn't really said much lately about when she will see her parents again. She doesn't call them her parents but she does call them mom and dad.

Does she think that her life is normal. Of course she does. She doesn't know any better. She can't possibly remember her life any other way. We want her to feel like this is her house. We want her to feel like the room she sleeps in is her room. We want her to feel like this is her home. When we went to classes before we became foster parents they said it was important that you treat a foster child just like your own. We have taken that to heart and that is what we do.

So now, while she doesn't know the names or the institutions, this is her home. This is where she lives. So what will happen when she leaves here? What will she be thinking then? So many questions. I know both DW and I love her and we don't want to do anything to hurt her. But it will have to hurt her when she leaves here. She will have to wonder what is happening and why we aren't there any more. she will wonder why she no longer lives at HER house or sleeps in HER room.

I guess it is two questions. What is she thinking? and What will she be thinking? and More importantly what impact will it have on her life?

I am rambling again. my apologies


  1. Would be interesting to be able to know... even if only a little sneak peck

  2. The same questions drove us insane. We could not comprehend someone else raising our boy, or what he would feel when he left us. We did what any other 40yr old & 53 yr old would do. We adopted our baby boy. We'd had him since he was 7 months old. God has a sense of humor